Thoughts.

Looking back at those posts, I kindda feel stupid but at the same time, I feel that I've grown quite alot. I've learnt alot from different situations and though I still have alot of weaknesses (duh, no one is perfect), I feel that I've improve alot.
It's sad to know that you have drifted away from your close friends. Like really close and best friends. The ones who you simply can't live without during school. The ones who you can't stay angry at for long because you have that much gossip to talk about. The ones who you thought would be with you forever. I was wrong. I didn't realise that I was so easily replaceable.
I know that you like him alot and that it probably took quite alot of time for you guys to get to the position you guys are at now. But please, learn to manage your time well. During mock test, you say that you didn't see him for a long time, fine, have lunch with him. But are you trying to tell me that throughout the WHOLE O level period you didn't have a chance to see him AT ALL?! What a joke. You say that you care. But I doubt you do. So I don't see a point at all. This friendship is going nowhere. It's at a point of sinking and no one can ever save it. Ohwell.
I know that you probably have LOTS of friends and that you have to ATTEND to EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. But really. I honestly feel that we aren't like before anymore. You say that we should have honesty hour during heart-to-heart-talks but really, the one that is being dishonest is you. I really think that you were just trying to get info from me. Fine, I tell you since I honestly have nothing to hide. But really, where the hell is this friendship going? You are constantly trying to hide things from me and that you don't wanna tell me anything (maybe cos' I was kindda harsh before) but still... What's the point of this friendship when I constantly have to act like I don't know but actually I know. (It's kindda tiring, you know?)
This year hasn't really been a successful (or peaceful) year as I had wanted from the start. But really, good things still happen.
Be it if it's Angie, Xuan or even Yunjing, we've gotten a lot more closer and honestly, I'm thankful. Thankful that therr is always someone there to hear me rant without complaining (maybe Angie and Xuan does, LOL). But we've gotten a lot closer, we've known each other so much better and I am thankful. Maybe it is all fate. Having to lose some so you can find better.
People change. Things change. Only memories don't change. And that is the saddest thing in life. When we look back to the photos that we have taken; the photos that contain so much memories back then; the photos that show the people that have changed. Maybe we shouldn't have taken those pictures to make ourselves remember about the past that can never be found again.
2014 is coming to an end. Time really flies. I've always said that I wanna restart life from 2013. And I still do. If I'm back in 2013, I'll change alot of things. I wouldn't take people for granted anymore. I wouldn't simply just PMS and ruin friendships. I would cherish every single one of the people in my life. 失去了才懂得珍惜. It's a sad yet correct sentence to describe my life right from the start.
10, 20 years down the road, would we still remember each other? Would we still be able to see each other? I doubt so. Maybe we can by coincidence. But really. What are the chances? We never know what is the future gonna behold but what we can do now is to cherish the present and learn from the past.