Wishlist

Hmm... End of February and it's the start of March tomorrow. Time simply flies. After a blink of an eye, 2 months have just passed, just like that. Though time passes so slowly each day, when you look at an overall, it's as though time really can fly.
Hahas, since March is my birthday month, I should probably get a wishlist up but the thing is I don't really know what I want. I mean, I have nothing in mind in particular now (other than getting my voice back and that I can recover from this damn cold). But maybe just one thing. One thing... That I know is impossible...
To mend a broken friendship. Or wait, is that even broken? How do I put it? I don't know... But do you have any idea how important this friendship is to me? I don't know if it means equally important to you, but it just means so much that I can't help but be bothered by it. I often ask myself why do I even bother. Why do I feel bothered when you simply walk past me without a 'hi'? Why do I feel bothered when you don't talk to me? You're just another friend, aren't you? Wrong, you aren't just another friend. We were once so close, what happened? If there's anything that a wishlist can grant me, I would want this. I want us to go back to normal, to go back to the past, where we can crap about anything at anytime at anywhere. I want us to joke around, talk just like friends. I wanna go out with you to eat subway and bitch about people. I want our friendship back. Can I get that as my birthday present? Please...?

Memories :(

Walking past that road that we used to do in the morning when going to school brings back so many memories. To be honest, I wouldn't be so bothered in the past, but now. I miss those times. Alot. Back then, we had so much to talk about. We crap, we bitch about people, we crack jokes. Now, it's simply just a 'hi' or a 'bye'. I hate this. Alot. Why can't we be like before? But then again, I don't know how to start a topic with you now. Or should I say, since the start, I've never really started the topic and come to think of it now. I'm sorry. Really. I don't know if you feel this way. Hah. Maybe not.
拥有了就不会珍惜. That describes me. Really. When I don't have it, I'll complain and nagged about it over and over again. But when I have it, I won't cherish it at all. Maybe partly is just me being this way, causing us to be like this. But if both makes an effort to maintain the friendship, I'm sure this wouldn't happen. I don't want to leave this school with regret. And you seem to be the biggest problem. Can you please help me with it? I can't work on this problem. It takes two hands to clap. I really want you back in my life. Can we restart?

Regret

Don't you have those moments whereby you've said something and you just wished that you didn't say it? I have. Most of the time.
It comes to a point whereby I really hated myself for saying out what I really felt. Why can't I just shut my mouth about it? If I didn't say it, would there by a different ending?
I don't know. And all I know is that this is a contributing factor. The reason why we're awkward. The reason why things are just not the same. You seemed to be the one who caused it.
Why did I tell you to go talk to him about it? Why did I ask you to do it on my behalf? Why can't I just solve things by myself, without your help? Why? Why? Why?
You might think that you've helped me, but I on the other hand, feel like you've ruined it. Everything was supposed to be fine but now, it just isn't. Really, it just isn't.