Realisation.

It's only now then I realised why I can't open up to others that easily now. It's because I never wanted others to replace you, to take up that space in my heart. You are just that important. With so many things going on, I often have that urge to just text you and rant to you. Regardless if I'm happy or sad or angry, I wanna share it with you. Maybe you wouldn't care anymore. Maybe you would just ignore me. But that's what I'm feeling now. I don't want to have another close friend that isn't you. It's dumb. Holding on to this, but I can't help it. You are important to me.

Pekcek.

I can understand if you're uncomfortable for the first few times. But if you're gonna show me attitude cos' of this matter in the future, I'll never be able to understand. Are you trying to tell me that you're gonna forsake our friendship cos' of a guy? Are you trying to say that our friendship is nothing compared to one guy? If that's the case, I don't see the point of being friends. I'm not gonna stand any more nonsense cos' of this. If you wanna talk to me tomorrow, I can talk to you. But after tomorrow, I'll just forsake this friendship cos' I don't see the point. For your information, I don't just give up on a friendship cos' that's when I really give up. Once I give up, there's no turning back. Just saying.

Melizo ♥

Had a wonderful day! Lydia, Lixuan and Jingying came over to my house (and starred commenting on how cute my family was except for me x.x) and we had lunch ;) Afterwards, we started slacking and nua-ing at my house while we started playing UNO and stress, hahas xD So we decided to leave about 6.30 just in case we were late, but apparently we were late to meet Xinyun and Comane, oops x.x And seriously, I wouldn't have the confidence whenever I walk out of the house wearing a dress or a skirt (except for school uniform) T.T So we went over to PLMGS and well, the seating arrangement was kindda screwed but we couldn't help it since we were late so had to sit right at the left and I seriously can't help but spazz at the pianist whenever he plays. It's like guys who play the piano!! ♥.♥ And we went to take pictures during intermission and after Melizo! It was a great night with the wonderful performance put up by choir! /thumbs up/
Most probably going to Drama Night since Yunjing is probably gonna be a big part of it, but that would be after MYE, ohwell, had to focus on examinations now. But seriously, I have no motivation to study at all. 19 chapters for Physics, HAH.

Untitled x.x

I don't know why I'm typing on this matter again. It seems like I just can't forget about this. Or maybe I don't wanna admit that it's the end.
You know, I never stopped caring. I really never. But it seems that you have so many people by your side to care for you that my care just simply means nothing to you. You make me feel this way since don't know when. And to be honest, I don't know what am I feeling. Hurt? Upset?
It's hard for me to open up to people. I feel like I'm burdening them. You are probably one of the ones that I can just open up to without any worries. I find myself unable to open up to others that easily anymore. Is it cos' of you? I don't want to open up to someone and later to find myself being stranded alone again.
I should let go. To you, I'm just another girl. To me, you are just another guy. But a close guy friend that I know I won't be able to replace with.
I miss you. I miss us. I miss the times we spent. I miss the places we went. I can never look at the places we went before like how I did from the start. I really miss you. And I'm sorry I screwed up so badly. I don't think I'm gonna get another chance. Maybe one day, when we think back to this time, we will be sitting together and laughing it off together. Or maybe this will just be another painful memory of secondary school life.

Homecoming!

Took more photos than this, but I'm lazy to post, hehe ✌
So with only 4 hours of sleep, I went to do Speech Day duty as the IC, wow! But then, it was a job well done!! ������
Had quite some fun during Homecoming though I felt quite abandoned :( But still, it was our last Homecoming so must make full good use of our time!! Took polaroids from service booths and ate cotton candy! I wanted to try the haunted house but it always had that long queue and I'm just lazy, hehe x.x
Last Homecoming and I was glad that I didn't make nyself regret anything, hehe ^^ Well, maybe we will all go back next year and just realise exactly how much we've grown, hahas xD What am I saying? Nonetheless, it was a great day! And I'm just feeling so tired now :(

Short post on Divergent ^^

Divergent yesterday!! It was so damn good! Hahas xD Like Theo James is the most charismatic guy and Shailene Woodley is pretty. And trust me, I totally ship the both of them!! Four and Tris, hehe ;) Now, I just can't wait for Insurgent to come out!! Well, tons of great movies but I just don't have the time to watch :( After Os, I just got to watch all of them!! :D