Memories.

I want to re-live those moments. Those times. When we can tell each other anything we want. I don't know the recent messages seem like there are some things being held back. Please. Just once. I just wanna re-live them again. Like... Initiate it and I would not end it.

Rant

Honestly, tumblr (and K-Pop) used to be a fun escape from me. Like whenever I'm upset and when I opened the tumblr app, I would be able to see things that can cheer me up. But now... 2014 is really not a year for K-Pop and just a reminder that the year hasnt ended.
Just look at SME. LOL. The whole thing probably started with Kris. Then Sulli, then Jessica, then Luhan and now Sungmin. Like. Okay. Kris left. Sulli had to temporarily take a brrak. Jessica got kicked out. Luhan is filing a lawsuit. And Sungmin is getting married. Out of all these dramas, I'm probably happiest about Sungmin's. But really. Some fans are just getting on my nerves.
If the boy wants to marry, just let him be. I don't care if you knew about this way beforehand or whatsoever. And whoever spread to the media about this is also at fault. You argue that Sungmin has already start planning in May or so. But then again, who is he to you to report his schedule to you? True, he's your bias, an idol, but don't idols have privacy too? You argue that he should have told us himself. But then again, what if he was intending to? Just that the person or whoever the media found it out from just beat him to it? Besides, he has every rights to hide it from us to protect his bride.
Like excuse me? His bride was being bullied. I never understood how can people change from a fan to a hater. Like. That person was once your bias. That person was once the source of your happiness. That person was once the one you go crazy over. And now? You're calling him names, spreading malicious rumours. I don't know. It's scary to think about it. Don't you think so?
I don't really care what others say. And I'm being honest here. I not only want Sungmin to marry. I want the rest of them to find someone that they truly love and that would take good care of them as soon as possible. I'm a Eunhyuk-biased and really, if this was Eunhyuk, I would have given him my blessing.
I just want this thing to die down asap. I don't wanna log in to tumblr and see a whole lot of shit again. It's really tiring. A palce that once gave you so much happiness and now, it's tiring to even look at it.
Also, 2014 should end asap too. Look at the number of things that had happened. It's scary and upsetting at the same time. Just... No more things. Really. Not only from SME. No more drama from any K-Pop groups. Just let the rest of 2014 passed by quickly and quietly.

Sigh

People are just so funny at times. They say they've let go but honestly, they didn't. We merely just bury those thoughts at the back of our minds wishing that they would slowly rot away. But would it? Really?
To say that I've totally learnt to let go is probably a lie. Trying to keep everything to myself and wished that one day, whatever that I've been pretending would come true. Which in this sense is forgetting you.
I don't know. It comes to a point that I'm probably numb to everything. I can joke around whenever I hear your name. Cos' deep down I know, that should be the way. I shouldn't even be typing all these. But here I am. 1.43am. After reading other tumblr posts. I'm typing all these.
We all wanna let go. It's too much for us to continue holding on. It's tiring and the worst part is we know that the other party is just happy without us. That all of these holding on is gonna lead us to nowhere.
No wonder they say, your thoughts can eat you alive when at night. This is so true.

Graduation

People who made my 4 years in Xinmin a memorable one!
It's amazing how time flies and it just seems like yesterday when we were all Sec 1 and entering the school innocently, when we don't know almost everyone in our class, and now, look at us. We've grown. We've changed (to the better side, of course). And most importantly, we've learnt. Be it if it's academic wise or life wise, we've all learnt something in school.
We've met many people. Some stayed. Some left. And those who stayed are those who really made my life in Xinmin a memorable one, they had gone through my ups with me and had stayed with me through my downs, for that I'm very thankful. And for those who left, it will always be a memort etched in my heart and that I had learnt a lesson from you, so I'm still thankful for that. Nonetheless, people that I've met in Xinmin were fabulous and I would always remember them.
They say that secondary school friends last the longest. I didn't believe that at first. But now, I probably do. They are the ones who truly understands you and knows exactly all your problems. What problems can you actually have in primary school? Haha. I will miss them so much that even though a day had just past, and I missed them already.
I always say that I wanna leave Xinmin asap. And I still do now. But honestly, I just wanna start my life all over again. I did many stupid things here and I wished I could rewind and change them (but it's impossible) and well, that's why I wanted to leave Xinmin so badly. But yesterday, it has come to a point whereby I didn't wanna leave the school premises. Let's all be honest, what's gonna happen after we officially graduate? No more sucky canteen food, no more flag raising that we probably dread the most, no more stairs (that I hate the most), no more going into class and start gossiping with your table mate, no more this and no more that. We say that we hate school, but deep down, by the end of the day, we all know that we would miss school. Be it if it's the teachers or our friends or a particular someone in our hearts, we would miss Xinmin. Cos' Xinmin is a place the gave us so many memorable memories. Cos' Xinmin is a place where we have so many shared memories. Cos' Xinmin is our second home. 😢😢😢