Xinthesis

Shall do Xinthesis first, since Media Camp is quite a long post and I'm just being lazy, hehe~
Shall not talk about how pekcek I got with people's attitude but instead focus on the entire event. I should have just gotten the tickets and went in like that. That way I would have seen the entire performance without getting blocked :( But anyways, good job to the performers, volunteers, emcees and definitely the Media crew!
I wouldn't say that I did alot for the event, but I definitely didn't just sit there and do nothing! Had so much fun time talking with the juniors!!
Okay, I know Jerome is annoying but if you really see his seriousness when it comes to the duty, you would actually think that he's a total different person. Yeah, he's cheeky at times but he can really be a caring junior. I know that he was probably worried(?) that I was only eating waffle for dinner and that I was very pekcek. And he said that I wad a good senior! Hahas, overall he's actually not that bad!!
Mika! I have no idea what to say about him. He is seriously annoying at times, if he were to tease me or whatsoever. But I know that he's just having fun with me. I have no idea why but he actually looks cute, hahas! If he can stop saying me then maybe he's better than Jerome, oops x.x But I really love joking with him!!
I don't know why but I really love talking to Jerel, hahas~ I got to know more about how he feels about me as a senior (and I'm glad that he feels that I'm a good senior)!! And well, I feel more comfortable talking to him. Hahas, it's only one duty and why do I feel like we've gotten so much closer?
Bryan is really a quiet guy but when you get to know him, he can actually joke. He was probably very sian, well I know everyone is, and he kept saying that he wants to sleep but it's either too bright or too noisy. Hahas, he is really cute at times!!
I just realise that I had been interacting with all of the sec 2 (except for Rivienne, since she was upstairs) and I really really can't imagine the day when I'm gonna graduate. It's really fun interacting with them, you get to see another side of you from them and well, you can joke around with them like nobody's business. They probably judge when I start bhb-ing but really, by the end of the day, I'm still a good senior to them!! Or maybe they were just trying to comfort me since I was complaining alot just now. Hahas.
I wouldn't remember what we say or do today but I would remember that I didn't waste any time at all today. I would probably miss the sec 2s the most when I graduate! :(
Overall, today may have started off bad, but really, it all ended well with a great dinner with Jingying, Kevin, Junjie and Mika! Times spent with these people are seriously the best!

Awkwardness

I have absolutely no way to express my hatred towards awkwardness. And what's worse is the fact that I hate it more if I'm the one that's awkward. But the thing is if you're not awkward with me, I don't see the need to be awkward. And yet, when one is awkward with me, I just seem to adopt a "heck-care" attitude. I don't know. It's irritating. I find it irritating too. Why do people have to be awkward with one another? Why does awkwardness even exists? Why can't we all be just free and joke around as and when we like?
I know that you wanted to take a picture. I saw it. And yet, I was avoiding it. Don't ask me why. Cos' I don't know. I just didn't want to. The atmosphere wasn't so bad and yet, after that, I just felt awkward. Like to the max. I've never felt so awkward, okay?
I'd rather you hate me. Do you understand? Why can't you just hate me? After all the things that I've done. You just want me to feel guilty, don't you? Damn it. I'm serious. I would really rather you hate me. I would rather not receive any of the presents. I would just rather be strangers. I don't know. A week holiday. And yet there's camp.
I need to talk to someone about this. I just can't. This sucks. Totally.

Xinfony

Met up with Yunjing at around 4.30 and I  sweae the weather was killing me :/ But nonetheless we stayed in the mall and it wasn't that bad, hehe. Then we left for PLMGS and that was when (according to Yunjing) all the suay-ness started. (And seriously, I'm getting a phobia of all this, lol)
We met the entire clique on the bus and seriously, it was awkward. Awkward like shit. But it wasn't that bad, at least I can still joke around with Yunjing. Then we walked in and decided to wait for Lydia, Huising and Kenneth. So we sat and watched the concert. Hahas, had to wait till intermission before we can sit with Xuan.
After intermission, we had to steal others sit (omg, I feel bad), but yeahh... It doesn't matter, hehe. And after the whole thing finished, I never felt so awkward in my entire life, okay? Yunjing texted Yifeng saying that she wanna take a pic with him and she included my name. And the next moment, it's like the entire clique knows. Okay, seriously?! Do you really have to show your phone? And later it gets awkward cos' I wanted a picture with him too but it's too awkward. Like seriously awkward. I've never feel so awkward in my entire life, lol.
Either way, I just wanna say that the band performance was awesome, and that I've experienced the most awkward times in my life. Hah.

Done.

I have no idea what the hell is going on. And I'm sick and tired of guessing. Not gonna care, not gonna bother. It's not like this things wouldn't get better, right? You always say that time fixes everything, then just let it be. Come to think of it, I'm probably more used to this silence now then to talk.
Maybe I've pms before so many times. And well, people often has those times. I'm not blaming you or anything. Just you can't say that I was the one who didn't wanna talk this time round. Cos' you are the one. You can't always just vent it on me when you don't have enough sleep. I don't know. Maybe I should have gotten used to it, shouldn't I?
And well, about him. Yeah, those times when you just don't wanna talk or hear about him. Maybe this is the time. Then it will seem like my fault. I don't know. I just don't feel like talking about him, okay? But you can say, it's not like I'll do anything. Because haven't you been doing that since in the past?
I'm sick and tired of everything now. Do whatever you want, I'm not gonna bother for now. Just let me get this feeling over, and maybe by then, your so-called correct timing would have arrived.

Camp..

Holidays are coming soon and that just means that camp is also coming soon. To be honest, I'm not exactly looking forward to camp though I'm part of the ones that are planning. It's just... Everything seemed so sian and the fact that camp comm aren't that bonded just makes it more sian. Looking back at the previous batches, their camps are so much more successful. But I know the thing that I can look forward to camp would be the night time when we can all just enjoy the night breeze and talk. Maybe, by then, we all will be bonded, hahas.

Birthdayyyyy~

Thankyouuuu to all those who made this day such a wonderful day! Regardless if you were the first one to wish me once the clock struck twelve, or if you gave me such cute and prettyyyy presents, thankyouuuu all for it!! But really, now I'm just wondering how I'm supposed to repay all of you for these presents :( Hahas, but I'll manage!!
Nothing much to say, since E-Hist is tomorrow, damn :/ But still, just one last thing! It's almost like a birthday wish come true. How long have we not talk? And yet, we're talking like nothing has went wrong, and for that I'm thankful. To both of you. I'm sorry for whatever happened before, and I promised I won't let that happen!! Thankyouuuu for gving me such great birthday present!
Let's just hope this week come to an end quickly and smoothly!! ^^