Disappointment

I've always wondered if I can just turn back time and restart my Sec 3 life. Hahas. I'm only Sec 3. And well, things aren't going as smoothly as I've expected it to be. Regardless if it's studies, or relationship problems. Nothing is going smooth for me.
Studies = Disappointment. I've never felt so hopeless and helpless ever. I thought my studies were still alright. And yet, all the tests proved me wrong. My results are just like a sine graph. It goes up and down, up and down, and well, it never seemed to remain constant. I always thought my humanities can score. But I've no idea what the hell happened. Why did I drop so much? It's just so hard to hold back my tears and bring up a smile. I can't believe I failed Geog. And well, I don't think I did well for E-Hist and SS. Wow. High expectations of humanities just led me to have great disappointments. I have absolutely nothing to say about both my Maths and Sciences. And well, should I be surprised that my language were actually a little better than before? I don't know. What the hell have I been wasting my one year on? The only thing I can do now is to use that two months of holidays to catch up on the entire year. I can't afford to slack anymore. I really can't.